1blackrose

If I could love another guy I would
If I can take you out of my mind I would
If i could just let you go I would
But I cant

Even when I try and nothing works I keep going
Oh tell me I dont LOVE YOU please

Three years and is has not change
Its all becaue you started this game
Then I pay you with the same
So tell me what was i suppose to do?

Its been forever and you said you love me
But is hard to understand
Its been forever and you have blame me
Well donT,you are to blame too

Now you say that I slep with WHO?
OH your so not getting the point
OH how can you say those things
When the only man that has touch me IS YOU

HOw can you tell me I cheated when I was the only loyal one
HOw can you not belive me when all I've done Is LOVE YOU

SO STOP BLAMING IT ON ME
STOP MAKING ME FEEL BAD
STOP BECAUSE I AM TRYING AND YOUR NOT
OH FUCK I LOVE YOU AND I CANT CHANGE THAT WHY? WHY? WHY?

Many times it just seems as time just goes by. And nothing and no one will every change, I would make your world revolved around your and never stop loving you. OH how much It kills me to make this mistake but i do and i will always love you who knows why and how it happend but you are what i need you are what i need

You touch me
Grab me
Hang me
And am still alive

You twist like rain
Not feeling your manipulative actions
And yet you are a mess


Look your nothing
only a victim of this world
look your worthless
crawling in the floor

Wind of thunder
Wind of rain
Wind of dryness
Of misplace sadness

I know what your are
HOw you act
Where you go
and when your done

Oh wind
Where did you go
Ive lost you

Why did you come back
Why do you lie
Why do you act like you love me
then leave me

Why do you kiss me
Why do you touch my skin
Why do you look into my eyes

Why Why

When you dont care
When you just want to use me


Why Why

When you dont care what i have to say

Why Why

If you dont love me

Please go
I cant stop
I look at you
ANd
I fall
Into your body


Why Why

Do i keep going
When i know you dont love me
When i know you dont care
When everything that ever happend was a lie

Why Why

Do i still love you

I have nothing to think
Nothing to feel
Nothing to stand for
NOt even across the air

The air just ignores me
Every thing dose
Not wanting me near
where they stand
Where they have a sweet home

I walk alon the path
But the flowers die
I walk and touch
And i am just like
OH, like a death trap for them

I look around and see the sky
I turn it black inside
I look across the world
I make it all
So cold

I see the animals
But not for long
I killed them all

Nothing remains
Nothing at all
I only sit here
All alon


I will come crushing down
Into the only hole
that stupid hole
I created
I made for my self to go into

I dont have no one
to keep me warm
I dont have no one
To say your not alon

Nothing matters nothing at all
Every thing just keeps going
Like a darkened storm

Let me die
I want to go
But nothing just goes
I just sit here
Just alon

Kill me please
Kill me now



Fuck every one fuck them all

FUCK Fuck Fuck for live

well things have not been going well, and i wish i could just type the whold story but sadly i have no f connection, gosh i been so happy and all and i been trying to just smile smile and smile, but lots of things have been happening, i had to take that stupid test that i have to pass so i can graduate, but yeah i hope i did well, wish me luck, i just notice how a friend of mine feel, she was like walking with us and i started talking in spanish and well kind of ignored her, because when i am with my other friend i start to automatically talking in spanish, then when i notice i said sorry, and today i found out that she thinks that i am bad to people but i dont, how can i go back the same way i was with her when i feel like we have nothing in common, how? Well i know i have change but still i talk to her, but the things i talk to her about is like she has not clue, how can you tell someone something and that person be able to understand when that person has not sgone through that,gosh its just a mess, but i promise my self that i would be happy and happy and try to get every thing possitive, well thats all

I want to find a new place
Were i can run and play
I really dont want to be
Afraid, afraid of them

I cant understand
They dont see me rare
I feel like i am not
The only one


Let me be free
Fly like a bee
In to the fields
Of love

I dont want to be
The way i was
I dont want to be
The same

I need a change
And i will fly away
I will be forever
The best i can


I will fly fly fly
Forever till the
Water fade
Into the darkness of the day

I can say
That i am full of pain
But i have to say
Is just the wind
That talks and talks
Never stopping
Waiting for me to fall

I am not a fool
I know my rules
I will go on
I just have to
Let every thing pass

Let the only thing
The only flower
To bring me peace
Nothing else I ask of dee

I feel like falling
Into the sky
Where nothing matters
ONly the butterfly's

In the corner
Of the sun
There is a place were i can walk
Even when is dark.

Years and Years have gone bye
Looking through your eyes
But till this day i feel
That i haven't been a good friend

Is not my fault
I wasn't loved
I cant never show
How my inside feels

I know what to say
I know how to help you
But i am trap too


How can i be that benevolent friend
When i my self am afraid
How can i be the only thing that can help you
when i freeze and cant say a word

I might no say or even help
But in this heart
There is a friend
That will always be right there

No matter what
Your always in my thoughts
Just playing you can be fine
And get through a hard life

I only know that i will be there
No matter how much pain
You go through each day
I am here
A best friend
For ever Till the END

I still remember how we meet
I still remember how it started
But now is like were not alike
Now is like me and you are different

You left and did things that are not your fault
You left and made decisions that hurt me
This choice you made was so wrong
But i know that is not your fault


No one ask for your path to be so hard
But if you don't open your eyes and work hard
You will end up in a dark hole
You have to go and let every thing pass
You have to just let it bee, and keep going

Even after we grow different
I will always be your friend
But it will hurt me more and more
When you go your way, and i wont be able to understand the situation
For now i let the road guide you, and i will always pray

Good luck my Dear friend
I will always be there



To: GEM

You try and try
You even beg
Nothing left
Not even a cake

You try and try
To be so nice
But this place
Is like a maze


You try and try
But never cry
Even when is hard
Even when you craw


I will try and try
Forever till the end
No mater what they say
Or what this world gives in return


I am so happy i think i am getting better in my english :D ( I hope i am)

As the music blast came
Memories kept coming
Nothing could stop them
OH i wanted
Jut to break down

Just like a movie
everything just kept
Kept flashing back

That time that for today
Only is in my memories
Only seems as a dream

That sweet
Wonderful dream
I wish i could go back to

But no i just sat there
Just wanting to cry
Missing him
After all this nights

Its been a year
And the pain
Dosen't want to go away

How can i forget him
How can i erase everything
How can i just let it be
When i have so much Questions
So much things to say

How?

Its been to long
Its been two dances
And you
Your no were to be

I sit here
By my self
Just thinking
Of your touch


I still remember
Me and you together
But you
YOU
You left me


You could not just have me
You were with her
And for that stupid mistake
Your gone

You only took me
Left me
And just kept going

Never will you know
That i still loved you
Even when i knew
That you were with her

But no, your gone
Your no were to be
So i sit here
In this dance
By my self

Here comes the new rain
That for ever will explain my pain
My emotions,my thoughts
Nothing is better than to start all over again
To be reborn in to a world of clouded thoughts and feelings



And now i am here
Nothing to say
Not even a welcome
Because the rain is mark with blood
It leaves nothing but pain
Nothing but cold



Here i am
New
Reborn
Just cleaning my soul